Archive for November, 2012

Random Thought

Posted: November 29, 2012 in story over coffee, through the lens

” I buoni amici non ti lasciano fare le cose stupide … da solo/a” 

it means: good friends will not let you to do the stupid things, alone .. 🙂

my random thought today is about:  I think it’s legal to not like somebody, or to be explicit, my own friend. I can not tell that I like my friend before, it’s just happened that we become friends. Let’s say you never plan to have a certain friend, do you? I mean it’s happened kind of suddenly. And my other good friend said, that to stay in friendship, you should maintain it. And I totally agree about it. Like, you and I become friends and there must be a whole lot things to do in between, no? Through bad and good things together, and not to mention a bunch of silly things.

For example, I have a best friend (oh yeah babe, you again!!) how ever far away we are separated, I never had a kind of “missing link” of her every story. How many miles between American Continent with European Continent, here we go,  do the math! the distance is nothing that we manage to talk to each other every single day. And we are randomer, like she talks about something and I talk about another, but in the end, it’s always that we thank to each other for the company. And maybe other people think, that we have nothing to do, that we manage to talk to each other from time to time. No, you all wrong, my bestfriend is one of the busiest person, who happened to sit on the position in the United Nation in New York Headquarter, while me, here I have loads of shits to be done. You go, figure! Just, once she said, it’s not that we are too busy for friends, it’s just you want it or not to stick with them. Through everything. Sometimes only one word saying hello will make your day. You don’t need to write like 12 pages of letter to maintain relationship.

So, back to the topic that comes at first hand, that I don’t like my friend, who barely do nothing on the friendship. I mean it takes two to tango, no? It’s not only one person to try hard for this relationship to exist, it has also to be from the other part. So if the other part don’t bother, why should I? Put this person in a category of “somebody I used to know” and move on. Because when I see around I have a lot of beautiful person with beautiful personality that voluntarily to be my friends.  So I am in.


dear God …

Posted: November 4, 2012 in my black coffee, story over coffee

oh well I found this post which I wrote some times in 2007, quite years! But I just want to post it again, cause whenever the time line, it’s still applied..

Dear God…

You gave me once again this such heavy burden on my shoulders, instead of asking why, I better get through this thing and try to understand it.You once again put me in very hard problem, instead of crying, I better find a solution for those such things. You bang my face once again to the wall, juggle my heart and hit my brain, instead of upset, I better learn to be wiser. You give me life, you postpone death, you give me friends but keep the loneliness in my heart, instead of worrying, I better walk towards you to know you more. You give me the dark take away the light, simply because you want me to be grateful with what I have and to not cry over something that don’t belong to me. You give me this roller coaster thing, to not hear my scream but to make me listen to those unspoken words.

Thank you God, for always having time to listen to me, surely you know everything inside, without me bothering to speak. And it’s good to have you to talk (or to listen).

written on May 5 2007